Happiness is not a destination(:

2006-12-09T23:49:00.002+08:00

start working at Sentosa Golf Club the 1st day today :D well.. i should say i gained another experience.. first i serve the ice water i spilled a WHOLE glass of water behind a korean guy's pants ~>.<~ than i like to say thank you to felicia for keep encourage me saying " don't worry don't worry take it easy you can do better next time " haha.. thanks :D well and thanks for that malay guy who entertain me for some chatting at the washing glasses there.. what a funny guy.. LOL . i make quite alot of nice new friends at my work place :D esp felicia & zhen na :D and of cos my whole body is aching ): my leg pain until i cant barely move.. keep scolding by shiying for not standing properly at there.. LOL cos my leg very "suan" ma.. i'll try nahs x:

and yes ! HAPPY SWEET 16TH BIRTHDAY TO ME :D its strike 12am alreadly :D haa..

2006-12-08T15:15:00.000+08:00

gonna end of 2006 is giving me so much fucking shits . yesterday quarrel with close friends & cousin today quarrel with parents.. what's next ? tomorrow quarrel with president ? i'm not trying to offence gods. just thinking gods created us just wana us to be their chess ? or their clones ? and why obstacles is so much more than happiness , love & cares.. this life , this world is making me so sick of it.. everyday facing it makes me feel so miserable.. feel so.. just feel that this world is totally hopeless (=

SCREWED MY LIFE .

2006-12-05T13:37:00.000+08:00

well.. how should i start the topic ? yesterday i have a TERRIBLE mood neither is good for today . thanks to hua for accompany chat on phone , letting me poured out to her about some of my problems.. but thats not even half the problems im suffering.. just wanna find someone to talk to.. and well.. my old feelings had come back to haunt me again.. all this rubbish is making me more and more miserable.. i don't have the strength to be strong anymore.. DEPRESSION IS COMING . haa.. better off dead..

LIFE , YOU'RE SO SCREWED ..

2006-11-30T17:28:00.000+08:00

Well.. yesterday went out with xs and meet chuan long & wei keat ? i guess thats his name.. lol.. brought my tub dress ! wooo finally yeah ? hmm the dress is quite formal , can wear it when going clubbing.. it cost 39 bucks at first but after promotion it cost 30 bucks [= and thats a gift from my sister xs [= thank you very much ^^ im soo happy about it.. haha now only left a belt [= the red belt cost 14 bucks =.= its kinda nice but abit expensive.. maybe going to buy it on dec when xs take off.. chuan long thanks for your presents & the movie treats too [= you spent so much money on me yesterday.. haha thanks ^^ well.. simply enjoyed my day yesterday :D

2006-11-24T13:41:00.000+08:00

awww. people are nagging to my ears for not updating my blog.. lols.. where should i start..

Wed : when out with qi to town , slacking and shopping :D saw ah shun & minmin too.. well have a fun day wif qi.. and guess what i reached home when the clock only strike on 103o.. my dad was happy about it.. lols.. malaysia here i come ~

Thurs : actually meet qi and von at amk interchange but they changed to centre bubble tea shop there.. when i reached there.. sheena , von , qi , tong , wanying , sandy & madadeline was alreadly there.. well didnt talk much to sandy , wanying and madadeline.. cos i feel that wanying and sandy change till i don't even wanna to know them more.. oh ya and madadeline one sentence for ya , don't even try to think of acting like a ah lian you don't even look like one.. ah lian ? its low class indeed :D

*A new life , new me & a new attitude (:

2006-11-08T14:20:00.000+08:00

lack of sleeping this few days.. can't control myself for stop thinking of you just for once.. my tears , never seems to end whenever im thinking of you.. perhaps i just want to make myself busy so that i wont think of you every sec.. i hope you are doing well at there for training.. really really miss you.. cant you feel that?
my life is totally in a incorrect order.. stupid me , still waiting for you.. do you ever know..

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 62th day . <33

2006-10-27T11:12:00.000+08:00

Ytd was my first day of work.. gained some experience at Shangirla Hotel.. it is very tiring ): almost faint at there.. oh ya the anutie really knows how to slack.. squat at a corner chatting on the phone think her size very small people cant see? LOL. and the china guy so what if you are senior? ownself ask us go do work you at there nua? don't think you are senior we dont dare to shout you back.. you chee la ka bodoh.. well jie should be the one more tiring cos she serve cocktail too.. hais.. just for the money money money ~ lets jia you :D

Always here for you .

I miss you on the 61th day . <33

2006-10-24T00:03:00.000+08:00

have a fun day on mon nite ! At 1st me , jie , shun, ah shun , cathe and her hubby went bugis to eat ma la steamboat.. jie and i keep aim for the chicken soup xD its nice.. the mala is too hot for us we cant really take it.. lol.. we ate until ard 11 plus than we take bus back to tpy.. hua and yu meet up with us at cathe house there.. than we started playing mj again and i lost 4.40 dollars ): yu is the big winner.. Marc meet jie awhile ard 1am plus than jie , hua and i went down.. he let us drive his car to practice.. hua is e 1st to drive , steady and cool.. after her is jie , she seem panic while driving but it still not bad after all ^^ the last one is me ! yeah baby i tried too ! hua asked me wanna try drive anot i stunned.. lol but still i drive :D im satisfy with my 1st time driving without passengers.. hohoho im loving it.. wanna try again next time yeah ? thanks to marc :D

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 60 the day <33

2006-10-20T08:44:00.000+08:00

well just come back home not long ago.. im freaking tired.. i realised that making new frens doesn't always seem to be bad ^^ i will always lent a listen ear to them when they need to speak about problems if they want to :D know quite a stuff of problems what they used to face.. problems wont q up one by one to let people settle smoothly but it doesn't mean its the end.. Advise to people , don't ever wait till its too late to turn back than regretted of what you have done . No point being a hero , people wont clap for you when you are worthless..

To him i really hope that i will forget you from now onwards.. i don't seem the point why should i keep wasting my youth life just waiting you.. its enough alreadly i think..

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 59th day . <33

2006-10-15T19:25:00.000+08:00

ton outside this few days.. very tired.. ytd went to ah shun house at sembawang.. there have shun, jer , jie , me, yu & ah shun.. his house is very nice and big.. 3 storey.. lols.. was playing cards , drinking & watching tv.. really enjoyed ytd xD well.. shun , yu and jie shared a cab home while i and jer shared a cab home.. of cos i fall aslp in cab once again xP chou yu sms me ask me don't fall aslp in cab.. lols ~.~ lets meet out have fun again yeah ? thanks lots guys ^^

*my mind is in a whirl ):

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 58th day . <33

2006-10-08T12:03:00.000+08:00

i don't want to say anything much anymore.. just wana to be alone... what else can i do beside that ? nothing at all i guess.. please take away my life my everything.. this life is making me struggle in pain.. welcome despression to my life..

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 57th day . <33

2006-10-03T15:55:00.000+08:00

you hold my hands crying , saying that you regretted everything , you want those sweet memories back in your life again you want to take care of me forever you want to hear me saying i love you like the past.. but don't you think you are too late and im alreadly torn.. you made my heart shattered into pieces from the past and i don't want it to happen again.. i don't wish to taste my sour reality once again.. just let me go if you want to see me happy.. i just don't know what to say.. just.. friends forever..

i just want a peacefully life.. is that really hard? feel so upset.. i don't really know what actually im upset about.. just feel like crying thats all.. miserable life seems no ending..

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 56th day . <33

2006-10-01T14:18:00.000+08:00

hope that everything will end in a happy ending.. really tired of life.. feel like just giving up everything..

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 55th day . <33

2006-09-24T01:29:00.000+08:00

went to j8 watch PULSE with sandy , that little pregnant woman.. haha.. that show still pg somemore =.='' sandy in cinema shout like i really wanna to act as if i dont know her x: is like everyone turned back and looked at us.. LOL somemore pregnant womans shouldnt watch this kind of movie -.-' well mooncake festival will be chilling out with all the sistas ^^ after oct 6 maybe going to sandy's mum shop to cut & dye hair , total 40 bucks.. quite worth yeah ? well glad that im back with the same sistaship with sandy again.. lets cherish it well and never end it again alright (: thanks for all the sweet memories you guys have given me.. really appreciate everything..

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 54th day . <33

2006-09-10T14:16:00.000+08:00

Long time never update my blog ler.. cos this few days very busy.. went out with all the sistas this few days and we meet up kok ann and mike too :D mike's car sweeee lar.. lols.. he bring us to pub to sing, drink & play pool till the next morning (: thanks to all the babes for making my days so enjoyable :D include kok ann & mike too.. haha.. oh ya kok ann since when you become so handsome.. omg.. lols.. well.. sandy and i getting a little close this few day.. do hope that we will used to be as close as last time yeah ? really miss those days we being together..

* I don't mean to hurt you.. im sorry..

Always here for you .

I miss you on the 53th day . <33

2006-08-28T11:59:00.000+08:00

Went to sch in a sleepy mood today . around 9am jie call me and tell me that ah huay 's dad had passed away not long ago.. feel so sorry about it.. like we say its just all fate.. we cant do anything about it too.. but i just feel that why good people go so early , bad people live so long.. its kinda so unfair to them yeah ? after school im going to ah huay's dad funeral with jie they all.. hope ah huay is fine now.. hope i can hold my tears in front of her in order to console her & hope everything will be back to normal in a few days time..

*I just hate the feeling

Always here for you .

I miss you on the 52th day . <33

2006-08-27T13:08:00.000+08:00

well well well ~ im backieeee once agin ~ since so many ppl miss me i shall blog today ;x hahas. well i just wake up.. didnt sleep really well ): cos keep saw "hao pang you" haiss don't know my luck is down or what ~>.<~ yesterday went to temple but didnt ask anything -.-' cos everyone off work ler while waiting for cathe , her hubby & shun.. few days ago we celebrate hua early birthday at cathe house ^^ alot of delicious food at there ~ got bee hoon , crabs , curry chicken , fried rice ( with "milk oil" smell x; ) AND the cake which taste like yoga~ oh gosh feel like im in heaven yeah ? hahas.. erm.. and jie , ber and i did hear something before we sing the birthday songs.. something like ahhhhh ~>.<~ and i also hear got someone singing very softly ~>.<~ is like its my turn to become so suay after hua and jie kena ? frankly speaking im scare , but people say if i didnt provoke them they wont provoke me.. hope its true alright ~>.<~

AH KEONG ! better dont fight alreadly nahs , you made me so fucking worry ): still fight till hospital somemore ! don't make us worry can anot T.T got things nicely talk 1st don't so chong dong ~ must take care of yourself.. we will always here f0r you.. don't ever say no one care about you again if not i fuck you upside down !

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 51th day . <33

2006-08-14T16:34:00.000+08:00

Happy 16 birthday to Wan Ying <3
wish you yong yuan qing chun mei li ^^

Remember must eat more huhs .
hahas .

sis 4eva (:
miss you lots .

*2rw prelim ler~ wish me good luck for 2rw english & computer paper ^^

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 50th day . <33

2006-08-13T17:43:00.000+08:00

Ytd went to meet neh , colder & noname at geylang for dian sum dinner with hua, jie arron & me :D while eating cathe and her hubby reached too.. after the dinner session , colder , noname & arron went home ler.. left me , neh, jie , hua , cathe and her hubby.. AND SO.. we squeeze like sai in cathe car =.=. no space until i must sit on jie leg while neh sit beside me with her legs up.. and hua sit beside neh squeeze like dont know what.. lols.. we went to tpy to wait for hua 1st.. cos she is celebrating her chinese birthday with her family.. so we at cathe house downstair smoke and chit chat awhile.. when hua is ready.. cathe drove her car to SPC to wait for her.. AND SO.. we have to squeeze like crazy once again T.T well.. we went to violent ~ woooo ~ we drink and sing until 2 am.. when we went out of the violent we saw jie fren.. lols.. than jie fren they all look at us like dont know what cos im sitting on jie leg , we are squeezing in the car & everyone is smoking.. LOL pro huhs x: cathe drove so fast until my waist is aching ~>.<~ and neh leg become soft.. LOL. hua most poor thing cos she kena by neh "TEH NEH" and hua told neh "you dont force me" neh said "force wad?" than hua reply "to jump car" LOL WTH.. its a very fun day for us :D next week will be our drinking session again :D~ im lookin forward to it :D

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 49th day . <33

2006-08-08T23:58:00.000+08:00

Just quarrel with dad again and over again.. after the quarrel , my face was so pale and i almost faint like how i did last time.. really don't know whats wrong with me.. hahas maybe ah gong and ah ma know i miss them lots bahs :D
miserable days seems no ending..

three words ; screw my life .

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 48 th day . <33

2006-08-07T20:26:00.000+08:00

Went to meet von , ying & qi at j8 yesterday.. we went to far east shopping than eugene they all come meet us le and they bought von alot of presents.. hahas "My birthday that day must ask them come hor" thats what ah ying said after she saw the presents ~ LOL after that we went to ps to watch movie.. while waiting for the movie time , we waited for peitong sheena & her bf to come.. well von cried for some reasons =\ but after awhile she is back to normal again ^^ we watched DRAGON TIGER GATE ~ its a quite funny and nice movie but the computer make until abit fake =.='' wooo ~ but after all its worth it yeah ? because got 3 shuai ge in the movie LOL. i prefer the big brother and xie teng feng ^^ after the movie we went to mac to make ourselves full than i went home with ah ying ler ~ reach home around 2am and i didn't go to school today x: neither did i went sch on last tues, thurs , fri.. plus tomorrow and wed too.. wooo~ sweee lar :O~ hahas

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 48th day . <33

2006-08-06T09:58:00.000+08:00

Happy 16 birthday to YVONNE <3
wish you yong yuan qing chun mei li ^^

Remember must eat more huhs .
hahas

sis 4eva (:
miss you lots .

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 47th day . <33

2006-07-31T14:41:00.000+08:00

Yesterday we went to meet ber with jie, hua , huat, KELVIN -.- , yew & dasao at bugis simlin.. ber bought a new flat computer hahas someone so rich huhs ~ after that we went to punggol which was where ber staying ^^ yew and dasao didn't come along because yew have to bring daosao to serangoon.. after reaching punggol we da bao food and went to ber house downstair eat :D After eating wooooo ~ guess what ? ber house damn super damn chio ^^ oh gosh it looked like condo but its a HDB flat ~ i don't mind exchanging my house with ber for 1 weeks or months or even years LOL =x his room is kinda like jap design and he has a Plusma Tv too.. imagine i have this kind of house i will laugh my ass off and roll around the house :O~ oh ya we watched CLICK at ber house too and its free of charge =x hahas.. click is so funny man ~ espcially the popo scene LOL. alright after watching we decided to go home but there were neither buses going to tpy or bishan.. we run like madness just to reach the bus stop for the last bus.. lols.. in the end we reached serangoon interchange around 1.. After that jie dad volunteer to fetch us home with his taxi ! finally T.T reached home around 1.35am and sleep around 2 plus..

* PS: Kelvin you are disgusting (:

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 46th day . <33

2006-07-26T13:47:00.000+08:00

Guys, sweet talks aint really useful to most of the girls nowdays ~ Prove it , better than using that mouth doing nothing yeah ?
Actions are louder than words .

Zhi long~ thanks for the ride yesterday ^^ and do you know my heart almost jump out >.<'' next time don't ride too fast nahs i will scare ~>.<~ well went to stadium to warm up 2 rounds and jog 4 rounds with hua and jie yesterday than off to gym ^^ Must have the determination to slim down ~ really hope 3 of us really can slim down yeah ? i wana have the nice body shape ! woooo..
jiayou jiayou jiayou ~ :D

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 45th day . <33

2006-07-23T21:40:00.000+08:00

Rather be alone by myself than keep on letting people ap me yeah ? Think you all have the limits i dont have ? I cant even believe that even YOU are treating me like this.. hahas what can i say than ? treat me as a "precious" when your friends is not with you , when your friends is with you im just a shit to you.. sucks those bias to the core ~

*Better off dead

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 44th day . <33

2006-07-15T00:07:00.000+08:00

Just reached home ~.~ Went for a RO outing with jie and shun today :D~ we went to eat sushi than pool.. well kinda boring =\ AND my heels is making my toes fucking pain , somehow regretted for buying that heels )): After the pool session , we went to meet hua at jie house downstair chit-chat awhile.. ok i shall type till here because.. its.... RO TIME :B

*No point making myself miserable ^^

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 43th day . <33

2006-07-13T23:22:00.000+08:00

Went to shopping wif jie, shun , hua and him today at j8.. i brought a heels which cost me 21.90 bucks while jie brought a nice slipper which cost her 20 plus bucks too.. hmm.. he brought something at j8 which was very expensive for that girl who he loves.. hahas.. well totally upset but what can i do ? very often we shouldnt be too persistent about things in life, we must learn to let go, and maybe thats the way to relieve myself but however its not easy to do so.. indulging in love freaks entirely.. yes i did cry several times but so what ? Everything still remain the same.. It will take sometimes to heal myself (:

*It had ended with a full stop

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 42th day . <33

2006-07-11T19:35:00.000+08:00

Here i come to blog again ~.~ hows my new blogskin? Thanks for a great help from fiona oh ang zi x: you all may give your comments abt this blog at the tagboard ^^ Well as usual i recieved some prank calls again which i answer but they didnt even talk =.=. aiyo why does those lame shit people exist ? x: oh ya i just finish my ang mo oral ~ still ok lar ~>.<~ next week will be chinese 'N' level oral , must jiayou ok all my fellow classmates :D all the best ~ we shall all have the happy smiles and tears when we recieve our 'N' results ((: Im dying to shop shop and shop now )): but no worrys , im going to have a great shopping with jie this thurs :D~ hey and guess what ? its... RO TIME ~ x:

*Always thought that someday you would notice me

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 41th day . <33

2006-06-25T21:05:00.000+08:00

Well well well ~ im back back back again.. did anyone misses the cutie me WAVES* Its time to say farewell to that lousy old computer AND AND im using a new computer now ~.~ weeee weee.. well alot of things happen during my computer was down yeah ? like i almost fainted , sandy and i are back friends again , zhi long confessed again while eguene is still waiting =\ and know some childish things yeah ? Some kind of "xiaodidi" keep spread my hp numbers to their friends.. please la uncle u how old liao dont know what is respect si bo ? -.- Although im blur but im not that retard okie , they want they can ask from me no need u kpo ok and you dont have the rights to ask for my respects to you unless you know how to respect me . WELL.. sch start at tomorrow ~.~ gonna study hard ler..

Hope he will be okie from stress
you are not lonely im always here ((:
missing you all the times .

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 40th day . <33

2006-06-07T14:56:00.000+08:00

Watched 666 Omennnnn yesterday ~ the ending not that nice =\ quite a boring day.. we from tpy walk to boon keng ~.~ wanna understand singapore more x: bo liao.. lols

Well.. jie say he is getting weird , hope he will be alright =\ kinda worry although i act as if i dont care.. hais.. We neither chat nor meet.. Maybe it will be better for both of us.. No point crying over a spilled milk i think.. But im still willing to wait , no regrets no nothing.. i dont ask for more.. let fate decide.. i miss you

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 39th day . <33

2006-06-05T00:02:00.000+08:00

At kor house now with jie.. hmm i did wrong again... quarrel wif my dad once again =\ when will i understand when will i be guai )): when can i make it.. hais i miss him very much now really... really much.. but it still the same.. it still remain the same.. having a mixed emotion now.. dont know whats really the feeling in me =\ i just miss him very much.. i hate mself for being so inmature .. why cant i just be a good girl like the past ? when will i be mature.. just feel so useless and hopeless..
ALEX KOR SAY HIMSELF VERY SHUAI AND AND IM FORCED TO TYPE THAT x:

*HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO FELICIA :D~
( Dui bu qi didnt go your party )

*I miss you .

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 38th day . <33

2006-06-03T14:57:00.000+08:00

Im hanging on since the last year of nov till now.. I wont regret although it will be very suffering.. I will just sliently watching his back and i dont ask for more.. His smile means alot to me.. And i really miss him very much but i guess he wont ever know.. It okay i will think of the bright side ^^

I want to be the obedient girl i used to be . I don't want my parents to worry about me anymore , i know how it feels .

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 37th day . <33

2006-06-02T11:25:00.000+08:00

The history repeats again . zhi long asking me the same question again just now before my computer gone crazy again.. when im back online again he msn me asking whether did i saw the last message before i dc.. i told him i didn't see anything and i will afk.. im sorry =\ Just want to stay single for someone although he dont love me.. hahas silly me i know :D~ its all worth it i think ^^
well.. maybe going to j8 with shun they all later to buy ah huay present and they miss the tom yam x:

Last but not least , three words ;
SCREW MY COMPUTER .

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 36th day <33

2006-06-01T15:49:00.000+08:00

come home at 730am today . jie, shun, hua, junyao and i watched OVER THE HEDGE yesterday ^^ the movie is quite nice and cute ^^ My next target movie will be OMEN than silent hill . weeeeeeeee~ so many nice movie ^^ well yao and i sit at jie house downstair chit chat hmm yup.. AND AND ah ying call me yesterday , i was like so happy she still remembers me ^^ and im very happy to hear sis more and more guai le ((: ah ying bear with it , NEXT YEAR NEXT YEAR you will be free .. you can do it , im always right here alright and dont do something stupid =\
And that GIRL dont let me catch you backstabbing me again((:

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 35th day . <33

2006-05-28T20:57:00.000+08:00

What am i really thinking ? Am i still loving him or im just deceive myself for not loving him ? what should i do to make myself happier.. flirting around ? Im just trying to smile at everyone including him.. do you know how suffering it is for trying to avoid someone that you love so much.. im scare im really scare that i will fall for him deeper deeper and more deeper.. The more i love him the more my heart breaks into pieces .. Maybe i just need a long rest to continue my journey.. As long as he is happy its enough for me alreadly.. nothing is more important than his smile..
It doesn't really matter anymore .
should i or shouldn't i ? give me some time..

*Those miserable days who will understand

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 34th day . <33

2006-05-27T20:27:00.000+08:00

Finally come back home le ~ damn freaking tired =\ but was a quite a average fun day nahs.. Reach there around 5 plus wif jie , hua and arron , we carry those heavy stuffs to our pit too =\ than waited 1hr plus for shun they all to come.. lee hui and her bf came than later tze hui , huat , yew came too.. enjoying eating the foods there.. well of cos we went for night walk too . First time go tower , SO DARK IN THERE =\ of cos will scare.. but after awhile not so scare ler .. AND AND the stupid toilet lights scare me to death )): stupid stupid humphx =\

turtle serve you right huh ? people alreadly so pek cek and tired liao you still at there nag nag nag . act like as if thats YOUR bbq .

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 33th day . <33

2006-05-26T13:18:00.000+08:00

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ~ just wake up from lala land..going ah huay bbq later tomorrow than will be back ~ hmm.. well dad going take report book later ~ teacher sure nag nag nag )):

I miss you on the 32th day . <33

2006-05-24T20:47:00.000+08:00

WEEEEEEEEEEE ~ finally jie computer is okay ler ^^
Im so bored )): what am i worry about this few days ): sigh..
my heart is aching...

* WISH AH HUI HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCED
STAY PRETTY ALWAYS ^^ / .

Always here for you .

I miss you on the 31th day . <33

2006-05-22T15:57:00.000+08:00

Well ~ hmm.. finally the quarrel is settled . No matter im in the wrong not , i have apologised.. because if it continues , it will be meaningless..

I miss you so much.. why cant i just put down ? Am i really fallen in love with you ? I know it isn't a crush , im just trying to lie to myself.. your cold attitude towards me breaks my heart into pieces over and over again.. But i think its doesn't matter anymore , all i want is you to be happy and find your happiness.. i will be glad for you too.. I will be just right here for you even its just a second..

Remember you are not lonely.. I am here

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 30th day . <33

2006-05-21T13:51:00.000+08:00

Am i really in the wrong ? or they are just adults side adults ? Sometimes i really miss those old days , at least.. at least they will understand.. If they just want me change my temper or attitude in a short period , its impossible.. im just being myself (:

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 29th day . <33

2006-05-20T13:53:00.000+08:00

Instead of running away the situation ,
im facing it .
im struggling .
who will understand ?
good things don't last long .

AND .
IM NOT THE LITTLE GIRL ANYMORE (:

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 28th day . <33

2006-05-19T10:52:00.000+08:00

Hais.. my chinese get 85/100 and have position 8 in class with whole subject.. im aint satisfy about my results at all ): what happen this year.. my results are getting down.. i must work more harder le ): now left ang mo i dont know pass or fail.. pray hard that my results wont go down during the N lvl =\
What a moodless day `

*I MISS YOU .

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 27th day . <33

2006-05-18T16:18:00.000+08:00

Just came home today around 6.45 am and i did not attend school again x: Im lack of sleepness ): wake up at 3.30pm.. well ~ i watch POSEIDON the 2nd time x: although its a waste of money but its nice yeah ? ^^ weeee ~ well my maths fail and im aint suprised =\ computer and oral pass i think.. only left chinese and ang mo.. pray hard that i will pass esp my ang mo, i did my very best alreadly

well.. just want to say i miss you lots now and i just want you to be happy.. to find your happiness and.. i will be glad for you too (:

* I MISS YOU

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 26th day . <33

2006-05-16T14:22:00.000+08:00

weeee ~ just come back home from school for ang mo oral . cfm pass liao r :x luckly is MRS TAN CHARMINE take us oral ~ WEEEEE. shes good , still will care for me ^^ when i read finish my oral she still chat with me macham like friends talking ^^ although students name her TIGERESS , but however she is nice (: thanks for the concern mrs tan , AND AND i don't mix with them alreadly dont worry (:

going for a movie later with jie they all ^^

* Maybe it doesn't matter anymore , i just want him to be happy (:

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 25th day . <33

2006-05-15T15:03:00.000+08:00

just come home from school for chinese oral.. sigh felicia say she saw the teacher give me 27/50 , is like SO SHOCKED ? first time get so low marks in chinese oral if its true ): too confident i think.. quite down yeah ? AND AND the china teacher is like so zzz -.-. she dont know that handphone can make bomb ? wth ~ LOL . nvm try harder next time bahs ^^ Tomorrow will be english oral wish me good luck :)

*I MISS YOU

Thetwoyearstime .
I miss you on the 24th day . <33

2006-05-13T10:35:00.000+08:00

Just wake up from my lala land.. around evening we are going out to eat thai food with dad and mum ^^ oh ya i got a free jeans pants from jie mum ~ thanks ^^

*WISH MUM HAPPY MOTHER DAY IN ADVANCED .

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 23th day . <33

2006-05-12T16:45:00.000+08:00

Im so sleepy & tired ): weeeee weeee ~ The movie name Poseidon is super duper super nice ! i want go watch again if i have the money money money :D~ STRONGLY RECOMMAND people go watch Poseidon ^^

*I MISS YOU

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 22th day . <33

2006-05-11T10:59:00.000+08:00

Going watch MOVIES later.. wooooo~

I MISS YOU .

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 21th day . <33

2006-05-10T13:26:00.000+08:00

EXAMS FINISH LER ! woooo ~~ Today paper is quite easy i think ^^ Maths only 2 people pass for paper 2 , pro sia =.= LOL. Boredness is killing me right now ):
i wonder how is him right now..

AND AND
THANKS DAGE FOR THE BNC ^^

*I miss you .

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 2oth day . <33

2006-05-09T11:03:00.000+08:00

FINALLY ~ TOMORROW WILL BE THE LAST PAPER OF EXAMS.. WOOO ~
lols.. but still will have oral on the next week.. hahas its alright nahs after N lvl can relax ler ^^ Today almost overslept , heng r ~ i put many many many alarm clocks to bomb my ears.. LOL ~

AND AND..
IM DIETING IN PROGRESS .
WISH ME GOOD LUCK FOR DIETING SUCCESSFUL x:

* I miss you

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 19th day . <33

2006-05-07T12:38:00.000+08:00

hohoho ~ just come back home with a sleepy mode -.-' JIE next time dont ask me come out for meeting those uncle ah pek lao ti ko ~ >.< ~ see nahs you tell him what happen than he say WE always have alot of "kan tao" ): is not mee nahs .. JIE you see what you done x: he have a bad impression in me ler ): but its was a very nice day to spend with you and hua yeah ? we went to potong pasir to see the election ~ it was very fun ^^ CHIAM WINS ! wee wee wee ~ thanks jie and hua for the day (: well im going to sleep ~ just come back without much sleeping ): NITE NITE .

* I MISS YOU

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 18th day . <33

2006-05-05T20:23:00.000+08:00

well what else can i say ? its okay.. (: tomorrow will be a brand new day again thats what i always use to console myself yeah ? hahas well todays maths i have no comments :x alot question never do.. within 1/2 hour i fall asleep during the maths exam , too EASY for me huhs :x

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 17th day . <33

2006-05-04T14:26:00.000+08:00

Todays eoa exam was "soso" nohs =\ hahas.. quite in a good mood today ^^ im chatting with him again ^^ or i should say tis few day? (: although it just a little chat , its enough for me already (: im happy.. right now i dont ever dare to think any further again.. i wont tell him my feelings again , i want him to tell me his feelings (: But who knows what will happen next ? hahas.. tomorrow maths paper cfm + chop die ):

*im still waiting (:
*i miss you .

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 16th day . <33

2006-05-03T21:00:00.000+08:00

wish me good luck for tomorrow 's exam again (:

* i miss you

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 15th day . <33

2006-05-02T16:47:00.000+08:00

well well well ~ those friends or whoever please stop treating me as "sad patient" in sch nahs T.T come on nahs ~ im sooooo active in sch de ler u all lai that im soooooo uncomfortable with it T.T well my stomache dont like me today ): and i got PIMPLES ATTACK T.T

im trying my very best to ask my parents moved over to tpy so that if i meet jie they all will be very near ~ somemore is at jie house upstair only .
LOL ~ hope can move to tpy yeah ?

*I miss you .

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 14th day . <33

2006-05-01T20:09:00.000+08:00

I MISS YOU EACH AND EVERYDAY (:

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 13th day <33

2006-04-30T13:32:00.000+08:00

well.. another new lesson taught by dage while im moodless of yesterday problems =he want me rememeber this sometimes solving problem no need use scold nor violents , relax myself abit then think how can i solve this thing? what ways can i use? i need a change a real change.. a brand new guai me.. thanks dage for the every single lessons you taught me.. im trying my very best to change =)

Yesterday after the happening , i went to my sista house ton~ AH YINGG ! finally can see you ler ^^ and i call von talk too.. im so damn happy ! lols.. They never ever fails to make me smilee =) i miss you all , miss those laughters , miss those memories MISS EVERYTHING YEAH ? =)
miss you all bits to bits.. <33

*I miss you

ps: im so happy because he chat with me in msn alot today and i l0vee the sweet you (:

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 12th day . <33

2006-04-29T17:51:00.000+08:00

He is not coming to meet us lata ler because he have guard duty.. cant see him once again le sigh.. Ray say im getting mature ? no im not.. im just a little kid that makes him so cold to me.. It seems like everyday is my miserable days.. But life still goes on , so why not be a happy little person to carry on the journey ?

Tomorrow will be a brand new day again..
cheer upp ^^

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 11th day . <33

2006-04-28T11:57:00.000+08:00

Today chinese exam so chicken feet yeah ? =)

Since when i become so emotional ? or i should say im always emotional ? My mood is up and down this few days.. what is happening to me ? i dont know or i should say i dont even want to know.. Those miserable days who will understand ? Do he ever know im missing him each and everyday ?

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 1oth day . <33

2006-04-27T14:46:00.000+08:00

im such a crybaby yeah ? hahas when im tired i cry , i miss him lots but yet he treat me so cold i cried.. How i wish my tears are dry.. does it really worth to cry and cry and cry over those questions that wont be answered ? Always trying to act like as if i dont care but yet i cant even bluff jie eyes how can i possible bluff myself ? Im real tired.. tired of this world.. tired of those stuff.. tired of those reality.. tired of those lies.. tired of myself who being so useless yeah ? my heart is sort of tired waiting for you.. but im always tried my very best to carry on waiting and waiting because i really likes you.. im going crazy for missing you days and nights again and again and again.. I need a shoulder not others , but yours.. tears roll down my cheeks and millions questions in my mind now.. When.. just when.. just when will you understand ? Im here.. right here.. and ALWAYS be here for you even its only just a sec that you needed someone by your side.. The silly me love you understand ?
Well tomorrow will be a brand new day again.. cheer up yeah ^^

*my heart is aching

Always here for you.
I miss you on the 9th day . <33

2006-04-26T14:35:00.000+08:00

Im sickkk =\ still drenched under the rain while walking home plus PE period while playing badminton i injure my left knee ): t0day is not my day T.T well i go study my ang mo while eating my egg bread ler ^^ hahas.. dont miss me too much okieee x:

*I MISS YOU EVERY SINGLE MOMENTS .

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 8th day . <33

2006-04-25T14:57:00.000+08:00

hahas well today maths period Irwan and hafiz they all are playing LOTION in the class -.-'' Irwan aiming was sooooo damn "GOOD" that it kena my uniform =) i didnt say anything but STARE at him than he keep on say du bu qi in chinese.. LOL am i that scary ? x: than i keep humphs him.. hahas.. well im gonna study now , its so call last min to prepare my exams in two days time yeah ? x:

*Exams are coming in two days time ..
*I miss you real lots =\

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 7th day . <33

2006-04-24T14:34:00.001+08:00

lalalalala ~~~ t0day chinese spelling test 20/20 and english compo 28/40 .. woooo ~ lol.. although english 28 only but to me i think i alreadly improve alot ler rather than fail right ? LOL. Chinese lesson is always a fun lesson for me ^^ during chinese lesson i took a box of sweet on mr ong table x: than he chase me round the classroom.. LOL ~ hes such a nice teacher ^^ think only him will understand how we student think and feel yeah ? =)

*I miss him each and everyday .

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 6th day . <33

2006-04-23T15:32:00.000+08:00

Nothing much happen today.. at home nua the whole day hahas.. well ~ exams coming in a few days time ler but i still haven study a single book x: im well prepare to fail maths ler.. hahas.. think after N lvl im not gonna study anymore.. i want go out work wif jie they all (: well saw him online irc just now but didnt chat much , chat for two words than he bu jian ler .. sigh =\ i just wanted to tell him i miss him lots and im still waiting for him but.. in the end i didnt because i dont want him to reply me in a hurtful way like last time again yeah ? jie told me that 29th he will be at her hse ton i wonder should i go see him.. i miss him lots

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 5th day . <33

2006-04-22T23:52:00.000+08:00

wooooooooooooo ~ just came back home aroud 12am sharp.. yesterday when out wif jie , shun , hua , arron and guang heng.. We went singapore river to catch crabs , we catch aroud 10+ crabs i think.. wooo ~ LOL. Today shun cook chilli crabs , nuggents , chicken and fries for us to eat ^^ only one word can describe your cooking skill BEST (: im so in love with you ah shun x: opps.. i mean your cooking skill xP Before shun come down i played a game name Fortune Teller in hua's phone , it says that my love will be very successful.. i wonder will it come true ? muhahas enjoy myself lots today and yesterday yeah ? *winks* thanks for all of them except guang heng for the console yesterday wen im crying.. hahas just sort of tired of everything yeah ? well but life still continue no matter how tired it is (:
so.. JIAYOU bahs ^^ nothing is unsloved..

To him : im still waiting and i miss you (:

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 4th day . <33

2006-04-21T13:32:00.000+08:00

LOVE LOVE LOVE . Whats all about it ? sigh ..
im sorry.. for giving you the same answer again =\ Stop treating me so good , its not worth at all =\ Sorry.. although im single but yet my heart is alreadly attached to someone else.. Im sorry , real sorry ):

*Why are we always waiting for time but not time waiting for us ?

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 3rd day . <33

2006-04-20T15:13:00.000+08:00

hohoho ~ my mood aint quite good today.. well im used to it yeah ? lols.. Waken at 6.25am today , went to school in a sleepy mood again.. PE was on the first period , we went to bishan park to play badminton while some of my classmates retake 2.4 LOL . What is school ?
school is a place with full of drama(:
I felt so lonely.. when will you understand ? Do you ever know how much i miss you ? Im wondering does miracle exist ? sigh

*HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MING's MUM (:
*HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HAMSTER*
ah ham ~ remember to eat more yeah ? opps i forgot you are on diet x:

ps: thanks alex for always cheering me up =)

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 2nd day . <33

2006-04-19T15:48:00.000+08:00

well well well... thanks to dage for helping me to remake a new nice blog yeah? :D~ the previous blog i lost my password x: haha.. Today i went to school in a sleepy mood , when it always comes to maths lesson you can found me sleeping on my table x: well not forgotten that my guys classmate farts alot today too -.-'' awwww ~ well besides that my mood was quite lazy today huhs? LOL . Oh ya i almost forgot to say in irc there wont be much so call "true friends" yeah ? haha thats my own comments (: Tomorrow is hamster birthday i wish her happy birthday in advance MUACKS (: dont forget sat ok ? *winks* Well ermm.. i dont know how are you now but i hope you are happy and fine in whatever you do and i miss you.. haha hannar and not forgetting to say dage is a very yandao very good very cute guy although
im forced to say that x: but its true yeah ? (:

Always here for you .
I miss you on the 1st day . <33